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BYU Bikes

I've been doing some work on this blog to try and gather bike enthusiasts at BYU. Come and take a looksee.

photoshop bike doodle

David O. McKay

I got to spend a couple of days at work preparing photos of President David O. McKay for a website we're putting up. I never thought photoshopping old, dusty, scratched photos could be a spiritual experience, but after an hour or so of staring into this man's face there was no doubt of his mantel and Priesthood:

He was a powerful proclaimer of the Gospel - famous for declaring "every member a missionary!" Under his guidance the Church nearly tripled its stakes and wards. He even consulted the director of "The Ten Commandments" during the film's production.

As I took the scratches out of the ancient, scanned photos, I found it a pleasure to be able to dust the jacket of a Prophet

sacrament

I've been reading through George Herbert's compilation of poetry called The Temple in the last few days. I found this beautiful copy of it at the Harold B. Lee Library that was published in London during the thick of the American Civil War:

The personally inscribed inside cover of the book reveals that book was given as a gift from one affectionate friend to another in the year 1864. Even after 150 years of passing from hand to hand and eventually landing on the shelf of the HBLL, the love of the author, the affectionate friend who purchased it, and the One who inspired it still manages to warm your fingers as you thumb through the pages. The Temple poetically describes the Christian's experience as he moves deeper into the architecture of the church. Finally arriving at the sacrament table the compilation ends with the following poem:

How sweet the Lord's Supper is to the hungry soul. It is the highest form of affection and love, and He invites all guests to his table. No matter how dejected and cast-off we may feel, he will make room for us at his table if we will but sit and eat.

mom

"Now they never had fought, yet they did not fear death; and they did think more upon the liberty of their fathers than they did upon their lives; yea, they had been taught by their mothers, that if they did not doubt, God would deliver them."

-Alma 56:47

flight

There's a hope in every new seed
And every flower that grows upon the earth






The trees grow, the river flows
And its water will wash away my sins






For I do believe that everyone has one chance
To [mess] up their lives






But like a cut down tree, I will rise again
And I'll be bigger and stronger than ever before





For I'm still here hoping that one day you may come back
For I'm still here hoping that one day you may come back

an elaboration of the previous post

George Herbert's "Easter Wings" was the subject of a term paper last semester, and personally the ideas behind it have kept me from crashing to the ground in the last month or so. It's oriented to appear as two sets of wings that depict divine ascension, but in order to easily read it, the poem must be placed on its side and then it paradoxically resembles two finite and earthly hourglasses. The combination of visual and textual symbols somehow still manage to make me shiver. The following is the conclusion to my term paper:
In summation, through means of contradictory imagery and shape, the reader is led on a sequential journey similar to the Christian’s experience. Upon first approaching the poem with the lines oriented vertically the reader sees wings, and, as they begin to read, the lines draw the eye from top to bottom in a descending manner that detracts from the divine graphic. Eventually the reader must turn the page to orient the lines horizontally and the fall is complete, the wings are destroyed, and the timed trial begins. Through contraction and expansion the speaker is made “poore” and “thinne”, but fortunately as all worldly “wealth and store” is taken away by “sickness and shame,” his fall will amount to flight as his life is impossibly imped on to the only thing that remains – the wing of Christ. As the reader concludes the read and restores the orientation to its vertical layout, the wings reappear, and two divine figures (one for the reader and one for Christ) ascend for heaven. What was once a tragic fall grace has paradoxically become divinely-facilitated flight.

affliction shall advance the flight in me

shake the dust

this week i finally learned that poetry is supposed to be read aloud. i've been told this many times, but i didn't figure it out until wednesday. i was reading a little john donne and george herbert for my brit lit class when i started to nod off. it was warm where i was studying and i was on my 10th consecutive hour of school that day. nothing was sticking, and the poems resisted the offensives of my weary brain. feeling a little frustrated i grabbed my book and my jacket and headed out to this courtyard:



to finish my reading. i paced in circles as the sun and the crisp air colored my cheeks, and the impact of my feet encouraged the dust to fall from my frame. my mind quickened as i read the words out loud. the fresh air taken in to my lungs and then issued out again warmed the words on the page. they stirred and spoke back to me - my breath had given them breath. finally able to hear their voice, the message was no longer minutia, but staggering. as i finished with herbert's "love (3)" i found that i had stopped dead in my tracks and that the words on the page had blurred a little. the feeling was like when the dishwasher finishes its cycle and you didn't know how quiet the kitchen could be, or when you stand in a forest and realize what it's like without the din of the city in the background. the release of the pressure causes you to open your jaw and try to pop your ears. even though the city was mumbling behind me and the chatter of students bounced around the courtyard, i didn't hear them. all i could hear was that mild communication that happens in complete silence.



here's another poem that i like to hear aloud.

we all live in a yellow submarine

i found this to be a captivating short documentary. it seems so feasible. anyone could do it. i might start asking people questions of the soul even when, at any moment, our conversation could be ended by a sliding metal door. you never know what you could find. you could discover that the little old grumpy lady who looks like a character from the beatles' yellow submarine film is actually just lonely and looking to dance with someone. you might help someone realize how important religion is in their life. i'm not so different from the other person in the elevator. i guess we're all just trying to get to a higher level.

seeing isn't tasting

i've never liked cookbooks that don't have pictures. it seems to me that if you want people to crave your book's recipes, you would include as many flattering, mouthwatering images as possible. so whenever i see a recipe that doesn't have a photo with it, i usually just assume that the final product isn't worth photographing and therefore is not worth my time and sweat spent in the kitchen making it. sometimes i read over a recipe's text that sounds wonderfully delicious, but the lack of a photo instills enough doubt to keep me searching for one where the final flavor is neatly and clearly depicted with a sharp, colorful photograph.
this week may have changed all that.
while looking through a cookbook that my mother gave me, trying to decide what to make for dinner group, i settled on a dish with a nice image and simple ingredients. as i was checking out the cupboards to see what we had, the previously bent and stressed cookbook would relieve it's discomfort by turning itself to another page. each time i came back to refer to the recipe i had to stop and find it again. finally, after about the third time of sifting through the pages to find the recipe that looked so pretty, i stopped to read what page the book kept settling on. "chicken with pesto-mushroom cream sauce, and broiled asparagus with balsamic glaze," the title read. i quickly realized that it was combining four of my favorite flavors - pesto, mushrooms, cream, and balsamic vinegar. wanting to see what it looked like, i scanned the page, the previous page, and the back of the book for a photo of the final dish. to my discouragement, i couldn't find one. could i trust the title? the ingredients and execution seemed simple enough, but would it turn out nice? what if it just looked like green, slimey sludge? how could i go ahead without seeing the end first?
in the end i decided just to go for it. i felt blind as i followed the steps but just kept moving anyway - hoping that it would all work out. it was a little nerve-racking, and by the end the heat from the stove was trying to convince our oven-sized kitchen to bake me, but it was soon over and the meal was ready. the final result did not look exactly as i imagined it, but it matched, if not surpassed, the ideal i had in mind. when i first tasted the sauce i knew i had made the right choice. it was rich, savory, and smooth, while the balsamic glaze was sweet and acidic. i washed the dishes with a full stomach and a completely satisfied palate. if i had only known how pleasant the final flavor was, i would not have deliberated so long in making my choice. it was worth enduring every doubt.

the age at odds

i've found myself incessantly whistling one tune in the last couple of weeks. whenever i turn on my ipod, it's usually the last track i listened to, and the one that urged me to put my headphones in in the first place.
the opening ekg beeps give me a glimpse of single individual's heartbeat as he realizes his circumstances are worse than he thought. in an instant the storm is upon him, and the heaving synthesized sounds swell like waves of pixels crashing over the gunnels of his tormented ship. in the darkness that is only broken by fluorescent flashes of lighting he calculates the odds. they are against him. he considers giving up, yielding his vessel and soul to the ocean below him, but in a moment of clarity he finds resolve. "when i die, when i die, i'll rot. but when i live, when i live, i'll give it all i've got." he returns to the helm, sets his course against the waves, and then reefs and trims every sail to utilize the gusts that once threatened his life to, instead, bring him to safety. through the whole of it he sends up a prayer of promise to be better if he makes it out alive.
perhaps i feel an affinity for this song because i daily feel as if i'm tossed on a sea of advertisements, sensationalism, and stimulation. some say the world will end with fire and some in ice, but to me it seems that it will drown in an ocean of pixels, flashing banner ads, and self-perpetuating algorithms - a neon apocalypse. at this point i feel as if i'm calculating the adz, and they are against me. there are so many decisions to make that will affect so much in the future, and there are so many sources competing for my attention. the waves are incessant and never let me dry out and think. am i the lost of lost? i could just give up and let myself be carried overboard. or i could grip the helm, trim my passions, and direct my course against the opposition. "when i live, when i live, i'll give it all i've got."

crispy resolution

lesson in consistency:
less on inconsistency

remember you was a kid, reminisce, days of the innocence now it's [timorous t.], google me the images

a friend wrote a lovely post about a dopleganger of hers she found via google. my thoughts were effectively provoked and my curiosity worked together with my vanity to peer-pressure me in to searching the web for my parallel personas. this is what it turned up.


my favorite image of, not an individual, but the remnant of a company formed by two.



apparently i directed this sketchy B horror flick released in 1990:

"what do you suppose these stupid hicks know about fixin' cars?"
"well, i imagine they know a lot about fixin' cars."
...seriously?


also, i went to springville high and graduated from the air national guard:

Air National Guard Airman Tucker Johnson

this is interesting because as a kid i was obsessed with anything military and especially loved airplanes. i still think about getting my pilots license someday when i'm old and rich. i could take my grandkids to prom by flying them over the school and letting them parachute out. much cooler than a limo.


but this is my personal favorite:

Journey to the WEG: Tucker Johnson Hopes His Last WEG Will Be His Best

any occupation that allows me to wear a tuxedo, a tophat, and a have a blanket on my lap at the same time is definitely a winner.

ghost

magic eye

"wait, it's a deer."

"nope."

"i don't get it. so you're supposed to cross your eyes and then move the picture away from your face?"

"no, you don't have to cross your eyes, you're just supposed to look beyond the picture"

"like this?"

"no, you still have to actually look at the picture..."

"well how am i supposed to look beyond it while still looking at it?"

"i dunno, you just do it. here, gimme that.... see? it's a guy rowing a boat on a lake singing a song."

misconceived

this has turned my entire world upside down.

meals

what i ate on saturday at my parent's home in minnesota:

breakfast: 3 homemade cinnamon rolls with cream cheese frosting made of cream, powdered sugar and real penzy's vanilla. 1 small bowl of homemade granola cereal with dried apricots.

lunch: toasted corn beef sandwich with grey poupon, romain, and swiss cheese on homemade cheese onion bread. 2 handmade chocolate truffles (one with peppermint and the other a tiny bit of chili powder).

dinner: 1 bowl homemade chili. 1 slice of homemade johnny cake. 1 glass chocolate milk.

what i ate today at my apartment in provo:

breakfast: 2 brown sugar & cinnamon poptarts. half a toasted bagel (accidentally burned the other half)

lunch: 1 handful of cheez-its. 1 glass of water. 2 tablets of daytime cold relief with accetometophin and guaifenesin.

dinner: 2 slices of little caesar's hot 'n ready pizza (curtesy of church activity). 1 bowl of golden grahams.

welcome back to college, tucker.

inní mér syngur vitleysingur

even after pulling an all-nighter to write a paper, when this song comes on it still manages to make me dance in my chair.
if that's not an indication of a good song i don't know what it is.



if i could make my life sound like this song i would never need to sleep.